I just wanted to let you know that I’ve figured out what the best feeling in the world is. I know there’s been some debate over what it is, but I assure you, I know it.
The best feeling in the world happens when you finally remember something you know you’ve forgotten.
Lemmie explain. Sometimes I’ll be doing something like scrolling through Twitter and somewhere mid-scroll, I’ll think to do something afterwards like, oh, I have to check the weather on Friday or oh, I need to defrost broth for dinner, and I’ll have every intention of doing it right away when I’m done my scrolling, but then I’ll forget. But it won’t be an out of sight out of mind situation, because I know I’ve forgotten something. Somewhere in my body, in my mind, I can feel this tiny knot of discontent that will just live in me until I remember what it is I’ve forgotten. Sometimes I’ll remember something else I’ve forgotten and I’ll think surely, that was it. But I’ll still feel that discontent, and I’ll know that I quite haven’t gotten it yet.
There’s no real way to remember it. I’ll try everything to recall it. I’ll try scrolling backwards on Twitter hoping I’ll see whatever it was that triggered the thought the first time (this has, like, a 20% success rate). It’ll try looking around the room. I’ll try checking my recent apps to see if I’ve left myself a hint. And unless one of these tactics works, I just end up going about my day like normal, but still feeling this tiny, bothersome sense of dissatisfaction.
And so, my friends, the best feeling in the world is when I remember whatever thing it is I’ve forgotten, and right away, my body eases up, my head feels lighter, and I know that I’ve finally remembered the specific thing causing my little inner knot. The knot then just unravels and I am free. It’s pure bliss. Usually nothing triggers this remembering, as I just end up remembering it during my normal thoughts, though sometimes it happens when I’m lying in bed, and have to focus on remembering things so I can get to sleep.
Have you ever felt this? Do you what this sensation is like?
Two things are amusing about this feeling though. One, all the things I forget are usually very inconsequential. Checking the weather, replying to an email, watching a new YouTube video…. they’re things that shouldn’t bug me as they don’t affect my life all that much. And two, I often wonder if this happens to me because I’m overstimulated. As I said, this happens sometimes when scrolling Twitter. Because I scroll so fast and am hit with an onslaught of info in seconds, this is perhaps causing my brain to go too fast and I end up forgetting little things easily. If I wasn’t so attached to my phone, would this happen as often? Not that it happens often…maybe once or twice a month?
To conclude, this is indubitably the best feeling in the world.
That’s all for now!